I would call this living in fear of the year of the tiger if it wasn't already a bad ass lyric in a St Vincent song - intensity, self-blame and all that you don't need to apologize for i.e. the good stuff that makes you who you is.
lyrics
Caught you sleeping in my lion’s den
you were so soft, so sweet, so silent
you know very well that I cannot be tame, no
I won’t come running when you call my name
Lost in emotion
burned by devotion
don’t get lost in emotion
you’ll get burned by devotion
I won’t get caught up in your old ways, no
though you were so soft, so sweet in those good old days
pretending like I am not a live wire
don’t you know by now
I am made of fire
Lost in emotion
burned by devotion
don’t get lost in emotion
you’ll get burned by devotion
Caught you sleeping in my lion’s den
you were so soft, so sweet, so silent
you know very well I cannot be tame
I won’t come running when you call my name
credits
from Fire Under Water,
released December 19, 2015
Written, recorded, produced and performed by Ilichna Morasky.
Mixed & mastered by Mikael Tobias.